You can call me Gabs! Major Whovian. 20, Long Island, St. John's Pharmacy school. Basically a two-year-old stuck in a twenty-year-old's body.
is it’s a word that is used so loosely and colloquially that it tends to lose its meaning. people LOVE food, LOVE TV shows, LOVE certain movies. i guess it’s just funny how the same word that people use for food is used while discussing romance.
and yet, people use the word loosely in the romantic sense. everyone is so quick to declare their “love” for each other and say that they’re IN LOVE when they clearly don’t know what that is yet. maybe it sounds pretentious, i just think that people in middle school who are so young and people in high school who proclaim they’re in love after dating for two weeks— what is the value in that?
sure, when you love someone you enjoy someone’s company, you’re physically attracted to one another and get butterflies…but is that really enough to justify saying you love someone? maybe. maybe i’m old fashioned but to me being IN LOVE consists of seeing a future with someone and wanting to spend as much time as possible with them for FOREVER.
i think the key idea is that there’s a huge difference between loving someone and being IN LOVE.
in the past, i knew i loved people. i thought i was in love but thought of anything more as just an unattainable fairytale. the perfect romance-novelesque-type relationship was never something i imagined having. little did i know that all it takes is the right person, and that impossible relationship suddenly becomes possible. my old relationships were really just me settling for what i thought was the best-possible type of relationship meanwhile, little did i know, it was not even CLOSE to adequate.
as sappy as it is, ryan allows me to know what it’s like to look at someone and just know it’s right. i happen to simply see my future in the beautiful hazel eyes that stare back at me and feel nothing but blissful.
i’m just lucky, i guess.
has an interesting way of turning itself around. as much as i may have been super stressed out the last few weeks over school and family events, i’m finally de-stressed and couldn’t be happier.
i’ve been seeing old friends and re-connecting with people a lot and it makes me really happy. getting close with new people is exciting and refreshing and really something that i didn’t even realize i needed.
on top of that, i have an amazing boyfriend who has been doing everything in his power to make me happy. between our one year and hanging out since then, i’ve never felt closer to him. the promise ring he got me is beyond beautiful, and i can’t wait until it’s done getting resized so i can show it off and really enjoy it. i know i say it all the time but i’m so incredibly in love with him and wonder a lot how i could possibly be so lucky. it just feels so different being able to look at yourself and your relationship and know that you’re doing something RIGHT. you can look at a guy and think you know what, i could be with him for the rest of my life. i could see myself marrying him and having a family with him and just being plain happy for the rest of my life. this type of relationship is something i’ve always wanted, and what i thought was impossible for me to have. yet, here i am…living in a dream.
in less than a week i’m leaving for vegas with ryan’s family, and i know it’s gonna be a huge deal. it’s gonna be beyond awesome. i get to spend a week in VEGAS with the love of my life and his family. not sure it gets much better than that.
AND i finally got the job at CVS and just have to wait for the paperwork to go through before i’m working behind the counter at the pharmacy as an intern. i’ll get to make money while gaining tons of experience with an awesome manager and i think it’ll be a really great thing for me.
at this point, i’m content with the people who are in my life and who make the effort to see me. i’m content with my relationship and where things are going with my family and friends. i’m content with the fact that i have my queens house and my job in line and everything fell into place. AND i’m just plain content with my life and i’m happy to say that i can relax for two months before school starts again.
is your ex. i just can’t.
is sitting and looking at someone and knowing that they hold the key to your future.
is knowing that you found someone you belong with.
is knowing that you’re loved unconditionally, even when you find it hard to love yourself.
is re-reading the beautiful letter that you got the other day along with a beautiful promise ring.
is being blissfully happy and not caring about anything else in the world other than being happy.
and it really needs to hurry up and be over because i’m sick and tired of not being able to relax and declining party/hangout invitations due to SCHOOL IN SUMMER.
frustration at its finest, everyone.
the most important thing to do in life is to look at all of the things that keep you smiling, and focus on them.